The Confidence To Trust

The Confidence to Trust

Trust is a very interesting concept. A concept in which exist many different layers and levels. For some of us trust comes very easily, and for others allowing ourselves to trust may be the biggest challenge we face in this lifetime. Some of us may have a high level of initial trust that meets huge obstacles once we start to move into deeper levels of vulnerability. Yet others may not trust easily initially but once they have been given one or two experiences of being able to trust a person or a situation they can instantly relax into a deep state of trust.

Our relationship to trust can be further complicated by our childhood experiences with trust. For example: If as a child we expressed our perception of a person or a situation to someone we trusted, and they then refuted our beliefs about the situation or person, we would likely learn to distrust ourselves and our perceptions. This can impair our ability to trust, and create a tremendous amount of confusion as to whether it is better to trust ourselves, or to disregard our own sense of things and always turn to others for a ‘trustworthy’ opinion.

I once told my partner: “I don’t want to say I have trust issues, but I sort of have trust issues.” We laughed about it a little at the time. Later that same year I had an astrologer tell me there was “no way I could not have trust issues with Saturn and Chiron that high in my chart,” and that my trust issues were at the soul level. I feel like I fall into the category of those who trust initially then bump into huge obstacles as life situations require me to be or feel more vulnerable. This is partly because I have great initial instinct and intuition about people and situations. I trust myself in that first moment to read the situation correctly, and then later, as I start to feel vulnerable, I start to distrust my own perceptions.

I deeply believe in the value of trust, and think of it as a basic human need. We truly need to be able to trust life and others to feel safe and at ease. We need to be able to trust the people we have chosen to let into our lives. Learning to feel a deeper level of trust in all aspects of my life is a regular practice for me. One in which I have varying levels of success from one day to the next.

In Spanish the word for trust, confianza, also means confidence. It resonates deeply with me that trust and confidence would essentially mean the same thing. It has become very apparent to me that the more I trust the flow of life, the more confidence I have in myself and my abilities. The inverse is also true. The more confidence I have as I move through my life and all of the situations that it brings, the more I trust the flow of life.

So, here is to continuing to nurture my relationship with trust. Especially trust in myself. May we all find enough trust in life to move through our days with ease, and confidence that we are capable of finding our way through all of the situations and challenges that may come into our lives. May that ease and confidence build our trust in life, our trust in love, and our trust in people. My life has improved dramatically as I have actively engaged in a practice of trust. It’s something that has developed and become stronger as I practice, just like when I practice patience and tolerance.

These musings on the topic of trust have made me very aware of the trust requirements in my line of work. It is incredibly vulnerable to allow someone, such as myself, to work with your energetic bodies, with your subconscious mind, and with your cellular memory. It humbles me deeply to know that you all trust me with those aspects of your being. I am in awe of your courage to be so trusting. You inspire me.

Thank you for showing me the way!