Lately I have been reminded of how manifestation tends to happen in my life. It may not be exactly this way for you, but I would guess there are similar threads in your experience. A couple of weeks ago, when I was teaching yoga, one of the students approached me after class and said that they had been working at their job for 30 years and were ready to retire, however they had always felt they would retire into something else, and the something else still hadn’t shown up in their life. I had mentioned in passing in class that I had been a Spanish teacher for 20 years, and they were curious about how the transition out of the educational system had happened for me.
Their question reminded me that most of the time we have to close a door that no longer serves us before a new door can open in it’s place. Especially if the new door will indeed be replacing something. Closing familiar doors, even when they have outlasted their value in our lives, can be very hard. And scary. Most of us would really like three beautiful new doors to open expansively in front of us before we very gingerly close the outdated door behind us. How are you at closing doors in the absence of certainty another door with open in its place? Are you skilled in this area? Or like me, do you have to be thrown out the door kicking and screaming as the Universe lovingly slams it in your face? I’m sure the Universe smiles upon me tenderly for being so persistent, although she might call it stubborn.
It is with this renewed awareness of the need to shut the doors in my life that are no longer feeding me, that I step into fall. And as is always the case in my life, every time I learn (or relearn) a lesson, I am immediately given the opportunity to put it into practice. No, no comfortable accumulation of theoretical knowledge allowed for me this time through. I am always required to put it into practice. I’m happy to report that I didn’t injure any limbs in the door closing this time. I didn’t even kick and scream (or at least not too much). I simply acknowledged that it was time for that door to close, and I sat with my internal discomfort as I gently pushed it shut.
No, the discomfort hasn’t completely left me yet. That won’t likely happen until I can see at least a glimmer of the new door that will eventually open. The in-between (limbo) is truly an important and necessary part of calling in the new door and everything that comes with it. It is precisely the discomfort of this limbo that helps us to energetically and vibrationally refine the plans for what we want come to us when the next door opens. It is with the creation if this internal space, often external too, that we are more fully able to co-create and collaborate with the Universe and the manifestation rich juices of the void.
Let your focus linger on the excitement of that potential. We are far better equipped to keep fear at bay if we remain focused on what could be. If we allow ourselves to imagine and dream beyond what we perceive as possible that feel good energy will carry us to the next door. Don’t worry about dreaming bigger that what you ultimately manifest. You will feel satisfied with the door that opens for you. It may not be the doorway to heaven, or the million dollar door, but it will be your door and it will feel good to you as such.
I have, with a bit of longing in my heart, closed the door to teaching regular weekly yoga classes and quarterly yoga teacher trainings. It was time. I absolutely love it, and there are other things that are calling to me more urgently now. Like teaching classes about energy healing. I don’t have anything on the calendar yet, but you can find up to date class information on my website, and I expect to be offering an online and in-person class this winter.
I have also been ignoring a door that the Universe opened for me almost a year ago. A door that I allowed to open and invited into my life with a mix of enthusiasm and trepidation. Now the Universe is more firmly demanding I walk through it, all the way in; and invite you in as well. If you have wisdom, opinions, sentiments, and contentious ideas you have been wanting to share, and you like to write or create two dimensional artwork, maybe this is a doorway that is ready to open for you as well.
May the door be with you,
lots of love,
P.S. For some reason I have been on a bit of a Star Wars kick lately. I find myself regularly referring to “the force”. Hence, “may the door be with you.” Let all the magic of the force come into your life through the next door that opens to you. Or shuts. As I said, you usually have to close doors to open doors.
As I was foraging in my garden this morning, I found the beautiful cucumber that you see in this picture, hiding beneath a large leaf. They had started to grow as two separate cucumbers, however at some point, because they were growing in such close proximity to each other, they became connected. For some reason these cucumbers made me think of how we grow with and into each other as humans. When we have been in close contact with someone, for some time, we start to grow into them and they into us. When we carry a child in our womb, or on our hip they become part of us and we become part of them. It also happens when we spend a lot of time walking down the street holding someone’s hand. Or if we sit next to or across from them at the table regularly to eat a meal or have our morning coffee and tea. These are just a few of the conditions that allow us to grow with and into each other in life.
My stepfather was recently diagnosed with cancer and given a bleak prognosis. I have been observing his sadness about his condition, but more than that, I’ve been observing his sadness at the idea of someday soon no longer being in relationship with the people he loves. I have also witnessed my mother’s sadness at his condition, and again more deeply her sadness at the idea of not getting to continue to share her days with this person who has been part of her for so long.
Like the cucumbers, we do not completely meld with another person. We do not lose our own shape, yet we do send out tendrils of our essence (of our being) and plant those tendrils into those who are closest to use. The tendrils go to and from both people and they pull us closer to each other. Sometimes so much so that we can’t discern where one person ends and the other begins. The borderline between us and another person is sometimes hidden below the surface. Just as it is with these beautiful cucumbers.
We are all aware of pain that comes from the severing of the tendrils between ourselves and others, yet I feel concern that we don’t always allow ourselves to truly feel the tendrils, and the connection that comes with them while they are forming or firmly planted. Do we savor the essence of another that is shared with us? Do we celebrate their unique flavor and frolic in the expansion that happens within us in response to it? Do we see the value in the shifts that come about within us as a result of this specific connection?
I ask because I am not sure I do. I’m not sure it is a skill that I have developed adequately. I think I sometimes want to fit new tendrils into old and outdated receptors. Or I want to define how the tendrils (the connection) someone is offering me should look, feel, smell and emote. Essentially I want to define someone’s essence and then pick and choose the aspects of their being that I want to behold. Odd isn’t it? Especially when I know so clearly how important it is to me to honor my own essence and be free to be completely and unabashedly me, and to be loved for it.
This is the gift that I am offered in this time of sorrow and contemplation. I am given the opportunity to refine and expand how I allow in and perceive my connections with others. It invites me to explore more deeply how I interact with these loving tendrils that others offer me. Do I have expectations and conditions that I place upon these offerings of connection? Or do I simply recognize their existence and receive and celebrate all of the beautifully unique ways in which they are offered to me.
Maybe this is how we learn to truly receive love from others. We learn how to recognize and receive it even when it is offered in an unfamiliar form; when it comes to us as an expression that doesn’t necessarily fit our “love language.” Maybe this is how we learn to perceive beyond the surface form of expressed love and encounter the essence and intention of that love.
I hope you are already fully proficient at the art of perceiving and receiving all of the love in your lives.
I love you,
Have you noticed that spring cleaning is both an inside and an outside job? For your house/yard and your mind/body. As we step into the season we head outdoors to more freely move our body, and to clean and beautify our outdoor surroundings. It feels great to move the body deeply after a winter of generally quieter engagement with our physical selves. You might notice however that there are parts of your internal selves that are still tugging at you and asking to be fully addressed before the opportunity is lost. Your heart might be asking you to finish the internal work you started before you completely give yourself to your outdoor projects. It is easy to become overwhelmed when we have so much going on both in the mind and in the body. This can create sleep issues and a resultant springtime fatigue.
We are now generally expending more physical energy, which is tremendously helpful in quieting the body and readying it for rest at night. The complicating element this time of year is the excess or un-directed mental energy. Because the majority of our focus is moving outward right now, enjoying the uptake in physical activity, we can often forget that our mind still needs an outlet for expression in order to be able to find its way to a restful sleep state at the end of the day.
To combat the somewhat erratic nature of my sleep pattern in the springtime, I have to regularly recommit to and become more disciplined in my daily meditation practice. I notice I will also often pick up my journal out of a need to work through my thoughts and my emotional experiences of the day. I find both of these practices to be particularly beneficial at the end of the day in the spring. They give me a tangible way to work with and release any mental hyperactivity that has arisen during the day, and set me up for a much more restful night's sleep.
Sending you blessings of energized days and restful nights.
With love and gratitude,
P.S. Looking for more guidance on how to manage the spring energy swings? I've written more here and will follow up with the remaining ideas in Sibyl Magazine and on my website in May.
In yoga there is a concept called swadhyaya (self-study). It is one of the niyamas; guides for living consciously, which in turn is one of the 8 limbs of yoga. The limbs are the 8 ways in which we can practice yoga in our lives. I often find that some of the deepest insights I have, from my practice of swadhyaya, come to me at night, just as I am about to sleep. I believe that is because it is a transitory state, the time when I am moving from waking consciousness to a dream state, and therefore the veils between realms are thinner. The movement from one season into another is also a transitional state, so the veils also thin around us as we prepare to pass from one season to the next. If this is true, then the veils are particularly thin this time of year. Especially at bedtime. I invite you to take advantage of this, as we energetically wrap up winter, to feel the stirrings within you and beyond you that will lead you to a deeper understanding and acceptance of self and Self. I’m including a poem that presented itself to me a couple of nights ago when the veils were at their thinnest.
Late Winter Stirrings
I feel a quaking in my inner chambers
A hollow echo trying to scream
Where am I? Who have I become?
This life, it feels like a dream
I’m neither here, nor really there
Still, I feel I am everywhere
Unexpressed and yet exuberant
An inner essence trying to flow
Completely present and available
After years of not being allowed to grow
Like an un-inhaled breath, of fresh spring air
Softly tickling my untidy hair
Wanting to know I have a choice
Demanding to be given my own voice
By Tawa Ranes
The Confidence to Trust
Trust is a very interesting concept. A concept in which exist many different layers and levels. For some of us trust comes very easily, and for others allowing ourselves to trust may be the biggest challenge we face in this lifetime. Some of us may have a high level of initial trust that meets huge obstacles once we start to move into deeper levels of vulnerability. Yet others may not trust easily initially but once they have been given one or two experiences of being able to trust a person or a situation they can instantly relax into a deep state of trust.
Our relationship to trust can be further complicated by our childhood experiences with trust. For example: If as a child we expressed our perception of a person or a situation to someone we trusted, and they then refuted our beliefs about the situation or person, we would likely learn to distrust ourselves and our perceptions. This can impair our ability to trust, and create a tremendous amount of confusion as to whether it is better to trust ourselves, or to disregard our own sense of things and always turn to others for a ‘trustworthy’ opinion.
I once told my partner: “I don’t want to say I have trust issues, but I sort of have trust issues.” We laughed about it a little at the time. Later that same year I had an astrologer tell me there was “no way I could not have trust issues with Saturn and Chiron that high in my chart,” and that my trust issues were at the soul level. I feel like I fall into the category of those who trust initially then bump into huge obstacles as life situations require me to be or feel more vulnerable. This is partly because I have great initial instinct and intuition about people and situations. I trust myself in that first moment to read the situation correctly, and then later, as I start to feel vulnerable, I start to distrust my own perceptions.
I deeply believe in the value of trust, and think of it as a basic human need. We truly need to be able to trust life and others to feel safe and at ease. We need to be able to trust the people we have chosen to let into our lives. Learning to feel a deeper level of trust in all aspects of my life is a regular practice for me. One in which I have varying levels of success from one day to the next.
In Spanish the word for trust, confianza, also means confidence. It resonates deeply with me that trust and confidence would essentially mean the same thing. It has become very apparent to me that the more I trust the flow of life, the more confidence I have in myself and my abilities. The inverse is also true. The more confidence I have as I move through my life and all of the situations that it brings, the more I trust the flow of life.
So, here is to continuing to nurture my relationship with trust. Especially trust in myself. May we all find enough trust in life to move through our days with ease, and confidence that we are capable of finding our way through all of the situations and challenges that may come into our lives. May that ease and confidence build our trust in life, our trust in love, and our trust in people. My life has improved dramatically as I have actively engaged in a practice of trust. It’s something that has developed and become stronger as I practice, just like when I practice patience and tolerance.
These musings on the topic of trust have made me very aware of the trust requirements in my line of work. It is incredibly vulnerable to allow someone, such as myself, to work with your energetic bodies, with your subconscious mind, and with your cellular memory. It humbles me deeply to know that you all trust me with those aspects of your being. I am in awe of your courage to be so trusting. You inspire me.
Thank you for showing me the way!
I feel profoundly blessed that I am not currently experiencing the relationship paradigm I will discuss here. Although I am not experiencing this dysfunction in my own life, I am quite familiar with it, and the topic has been nagging me for months, asking me to address it. I have watched the dynamic play out in the lives of many of my clients and loved ones, in particular, my male clients and loved ones. Currently, a large percentage of the men I encounter are living out the victim archetype (assuming the role of victim) in their intimate relationships. I have, of course, repeatedly observed (and in the past fallen victim to) the male as aggressor/ female as victim archetypes. Much of it manifested in its original form: the female in the relationship as the victim and the male as the aggressor. However, more recent observations have reminded me of the importance of looking at this social paradigm in its entirety and myriad manifestations. These observations have very firmly reminded me that I have also observed the other manifestations of this archetypal relationship dysfunction. I have seen males as aggressors toward younger, smaller or more vulnerable males and females. And I have seen females as aggressors victimizing males and females who are younger, smaller or more vulnerable.
The specific dynamic I have repeatedly observed in the last year has been of women victimizing their child/ children, their male partner, or their ex-partner (male). This victimization or abuse is predominately emotional in nature, but in some cases has also taken physical form. I think it would be easy to simply label this as a role reversal, since historically it is the man who is the perpetrator of this sort of behavior. And it is a reversal of roles, however I believe it is far more complex than that. It is important to explore those complexities because reversing the roles only adds more dysfunction to the already broken (sick) system.
This is a conversation we desperately need to have. Probably over and over again, because the dynamic has become so tightly woven into the fabric of society that we either don’t see it anymore or we believe it is the only way things can be. The problem with ignoring or accepting it is that it is becoming more and more toxic to relationships, and to the humans attempting to find success in relationships. We are social animals and we need relationships. We need healthy relationships, so it is important that we heal this wound; personally (if it is a wound we carry as an individual) and collectively.
To me this archetypal relationship dynamic demonstrates a deep societal dysfunction, and a heaping dose of wounded-ness within us and amongst us. I believe the socialization process: which in this discussion includes a) how we are enculturated as both males and females (as well as the entire continuum of gender identification that exists among us), and b) the wounds we carry with us; has more to do with how we relate to each other and ourselves than any biological, physiological, or anatomical differences between us.
I use the term archetype to indicate a commonly held model of behavior in society. In reading this article it will be helpful to understand that all archetypes can be manifested by all people. So, for the sake of this discussion, just because the archetype we are looking at is ‘male aggressor’ that does not mean that a woman or a trans-gendered woman or man (this is not an exhaustive list) cannot adopt and play out the archetype ‘male aggressor.’ I have chosen to stick with the archetypes ‘male aggressor/ female victim’ because those archetypes are the most entrenched in our society and therefore are useful examples of this particular dynamic. I also choose to use the archetype in its original form because it lends itself well to discussing how we work with the feminine and masculine energies within us. In making this choice, it is also important that the reader understand that these archetypes can be adopted by anyone and the dysfunctional dynamic that comes as a result is the same regardless of who is taking which role.
I will approach this topic from the perspective of energy medicine and the energetic body. This gives me an effective way to focus the discussion, as it is enormous and complex. From the energetic perspective, the archetypes victim and aggressor, can be seen as two sides of the same coin. That is to say that the energetic imprint (or vibration) is the same in both instances. They are two manifestations of the same archetype, so to speak. The differentiating factor is that one manifests the feminine aspects of the archetype and one manifests the masculine aspects. We could just as easily say that one is the receptive manifestation of the vibrational imprint and the other is the active manifestation. All things are a balance of feminine and masculine (receptive and active). This is why we can see these societal archetypes present in any kind of relationship, and between two people of any gender. This is an energetic problem. It emerges from the foundations of who we are and how we interact with each other on an energetic level.
This brings me to the origins of the dysfunctional archetype and how we come to adopt/ adapt it in our own behavior and experiences. We start with the larger patriarchal system that hands these archetypes (or models) down to us. This is done through establishing beliefs and behaviors as the norm, as the acceptable way to think or behave. Think of the expressions: “boys will be boys,” “she got what she dressed for” and “he’s such a pussy.” These are examples of victim/ aggressor archetypal beliefs we hold as a collective (even if we don’t personally subscribe to them). This is a gross and necessary simplification of the socialization process.
The other aspect of the perpetuation of this archetypal dysfunction, and our socialization, is how we individually carry it and pass it on. As I get a clearer picture of this particular archetypal manifestation, I have started to observe it from the perspective of how our individual and collective wounds affect our behaviors, as well as how they interact with the enculturation process. It gets a little convoluted here because the trauma we experience in life is part of the enculturation process, and it also affects how we receive/integrate or reject the process of enculturation. Do we accept the archetypal dysfunction that is being handed down to us or do we reject it?
Many individuals have been taught (socialized) to believe that we are either victim or aggressor. This is one of the ways in which this particular energetic imprint becomes internalized. Many of us have been victimized in childhood: through emotional, physical or sexual abuse, or through neglect and abandonment. These experiences also teach us that we are either victim or perpetrator. We often witness, or experience personally, that females are more likely to fall victim to males. Or we observe/ experience that children are more likely to be victimized by adults. This teaches us about hierarchy and dominance. We start to form beliefs about humans that tell us the world is made up of victims and aggressors. We start to believe that if we aren’t one we have to be the other. In this way we spread, either through the generations (via our children), or in our intimate relationships, the dysfunction of how we experienced intimacy with our parents, our caregivers, and our society (i.e. we hand down the wounds that came as a result of our individual enculturation process). The neglect, abuse, abandonment or enmeshment that we experienced in childhood plays out in our relationships in adulthood, and the archetypes society hands down to us, give us the basic models for our behavior.
Analyzing the energetic root of this phenomenon will hopefully help us come to an understanding that reversing the power structure does nothing to heal our wounds or mend society. That is to say, that once the ‘victim’ is finally able to wield a measure of power and use that power over someone else, this does not heal the original wound. It only creates more wounds. For the victim, who has now become the perpetrator (aggressor), and for the person they are in turn victimizing. With this approach we continue to add layers of wounding, we add layers of dysfunction to the enculturation process, and we reinforce the original archetypes; individual after individual, generation after generation. The role reversal that is happening, and that I have been observing for the last year, is an example of how someone goes from manifesting the vibration in its receptive/feminine form (as victim) to manifesting it in its active/masculine form (as aggressor/ perpetrator), or vice versa. It does nothing to actually transmute and clear the vibration (archetypal dysfunction) we carry within us, or to re-pattern our behavior.
The men I have been observing are men who seem to have chosen not to be the stereo typical male. They are kind and gentle, they try to take responsibility for their part in a situation, and they care for people. In other words, they are manifesting more feminine energy in this regard. What I want to explore, is the idea that they have stepped into the victim role (expressing the more feminine dysfunctional energy of the archetype), possibly as a result of not wanting to step into the perpetrator role (expressing the more masculine energy dysfunction), or possibly because they were always in the victim role and haven’t figure out how to heal that. On the other side of the discussion are the women who would now appear to be perpetrators (expressing the masculine side of the dysfunction). In all likelihood they were victimized as children (just as most male perpetrators were), and have chosen to be the aggressor as their way to escape continuing to be the victim. (Note that when I say chosen, it is likely a completely subconscious process.)
So, we can’t heal this wound (individually or collectively) by simply manifesting the other side of the archetypal coin. For example: When a woman who has been victimized in her life chooses (subconsciously) to be an aggressor toward her children or her partner/ ex-partner she is then manifesting the other side of the coin. She is behaving according to the exact energy imprint that allowed her to be a victim. No actual healing has occurred. She is simply manifesting the dysfunction from the other side. The same is true from the aggressor perspective. If a male has been taught through his life experiences to be an aggressor, but chooses to not manifest that in his behavior, he will likely manifest the energy of the archetype from the victim side of the coin, which makes him vulnerable to being victimized by others. This is because in both cases the individual still carries the original dysfunctional energetic imprint. Reversing roles will only add to the entrenched nature of this societal issue, it will never heal it.
The way this looks on the individual level, is that many people who have been victimized in their life seem to feel (or at least they behave in a way that would indicate they feel) they only have two choices in their own behavior when relating to the people with whom they have an intimate relationship. The two options that are available are to be a victim or to be an aggressor. It doesn’t appear that we know, as individuals or as a collective, that there are other options. The societal archetypes that were handed down to us, and the wounds we still carry in are cells, are very powerful. They have a way of making us believe they are the only options available to us.
Yet we don’t have to continue to be a victim, and we also don’t have to victimize others in order to achieve peace and safety in our lives. Why is it so difficult for us to see that we have more options available to us? Well, because we haven’t healed that energetic imprint within us, as individuals or as a society. This is a collective, patriarchal, systemically perpetuated, oh so very old paradigm, and until we heal and transmute (read eradicate) the energetic imprint we will continue to perpetuate this archetype in our relationships.
On the other hand, releasing the energetic imprint (vibration) allows us to release the old pattern, and discover new ones. Once we clear the energetic dysfunction (or false belief) we are then open to new options. The color pallet we are working with instantly expands. It’s a bit like going from tunnel vision to a panoramic view of your personal story. What does that mean? It means that we, as individuals and as a society, have to take our emotional and energetic healing journey to heart. We have to see it as just as important as feeding ourselves nourishing food and drinking clean water. To heal physically and psychologically in not enough, we have to heal the energetic dysfunction as well. Find someone who can help you clear, dissolve and transmute the dysfunctional archetypal imprint from your physical and energetic being. You deserve to enjoy healthy and fulfilling relationships. We all do.
I want to briefly note the importance of the “Me too” movement and the momentum that women are experiencing in social change and empowerment. This is a critical piece of the healing puzzle. It is also critically important that we not simply instill the feminine mirror image of the current patriarchal social structures. We must all take part in building an entirely new system. That is the beauty of the feminine Divine: It is inclusive, restorative, and collaborative, and it seeks wholeness and love. We must take all of society into this healing with us. We must help the men and the wounded male energy as well as the women and wounded female energy, and bring it all into our healing circle.
Hello Dearest Ones,
I've been wanting to get a love note out to you for the last few days. First I needed to find my way free of one of the waves of intense energy that seem to be hitting us all in the last few weeks. I find it preferable to have a clear head and an open heart when writing love notes (or anything, for that matter).
The collective and cosmic energies are quite intense and fiery as of late. The astrologers will tell you it has a lot to do with the movements of Mars, Saturn and Mercury. I have no doubt this is true, however, what I most pick up on and tune into is the collective energies that my etheric body feels. Those of you who are sensitive to ambient energies and human emotions are likely experiencing a pretty intense case of nervous system overload, intermingled with bright burst of creativity and enthusiasm for life.
What this is likely to look and feel like for many of us is: difficulty getting to sleep and/or staying asleep (there is some anxiety mixed in here for many of you), an erratic appetite that swings from huge to absent, high and productive energy for a day or two followed by complete exhaustion and low mood for a day or two, illness and body aches, difficult communication, and lots of old or obsolete patterns, fears and conflicts surfacing.
I awoke with this thought this morning. It seems pertinent to the topic at hand: We often participate in self-indulgence and self-neglect, but rarely do we practice self-respect.
Self care is critical right now. When your body asks for rest, rest. When your body requires movement, move. Hydrate even more diligently than you usually do. It is especially helpful to eat foods that have a high water content like cucumbers, bell peppers, oranges, grapefruits, and melons. Also, grounding foods like protein and good fats are helpful.
Finding a quiet moment each day or even a couple of times a day can really make a difference. If you aren't into meditation just take the time to focus on your breath a couple of times a day. Sit on the earth or place your feet on the earth first, then try to continuously fill your lungs for 4 seconds and continuously empty them for 4 seconds. Do this for 5-10 breaths. If you can extend the breath out to 6 or 7 seconds, even better. If you like to meditate or have been thinking about starting a meditation practice, now is a great time to do so. Even 3-5 minutes of meditation can make a huge positive impact on your nervous system. If your mind refuses to get quiet just sit still with the breath and observe how busy your mind is. It's important to observe without judgment.
The biggest thing that is causing these intense waves is the resurfacing of old/ obsolete patterns, fears and conflicts. To allow these patterns to surface and gain wisdom from them requires a big dose of self-compassion. If you aren't very adept at self-compassion, it helps to look at things as if they were being experienced by someone you love. Respond to your own struggles in the way you would respond to your son, sister, or friend. Also, in healing there is a concept we talk about called spiraling. In spiraling, when we come around yet again to an old and tired theme in our lives, we tend to get frustrated and wonder why we haven't been able to move on from this particular thing. It is helpful to recognize that we are always coming around to a deeper level or layer of the issue. Progress is inherent in the process, and acknowledging the progress has an additive quality to the healing you are doing. So, recognize and acknowledge that the tenor of this particular struggle is slightly different this time around. Notice that you are able to be more objective about it. Notice that your heart doesn't shut down quite as tightly. Notice that you no longer carry a hard lump in your throat when you address whatever it is that is presenting itself to you. The discomfort we feel comes from resisting and trying to ignore what is being shown to us and asking for resolution. You don't have to do anything with it. Just see, feel or hear what is surfacing for you and take a compassionate look at it. Cry if you need to cry, scream if you need to scream, talk to someone about it if you know that would help. Acknowledge it, and then invite all of the energy you carry about it to leave you. Ask for it to be lifted off of you. God/ Goddess will happily do that for you. Repeat this process as much as necessary, until you notice that you feel lighter and like you have moved forward emotionally.
The good news is that we only have a couple more weeks of this to move through. Take advantage of what it is trying to teach you. There is great wisdom to be gained in actively participating in the process.
I love you all,
You have been on my mind and in my heart lately. I have been attempting to get a communique out to you for several weeks. To no avail. Until now. Of course, timing is always divine if we allow it to be so. Each time my efforts were foiled I simply stepped back and respected the probability that the time was not quite ripe. In the time of ripening that I have allowed, my thoughts and perceptions have shifted and evolved. Hopefully making for a clearer and more resonant message for you.
Since the end of December there have been some very dramatic shifts in energy. The most notable of which, is feeling like we have a bit more get up and go. There is ample potent and vibrant life force energy (prana) flowing around for us to tap into at this time. This is always the case, however it is simply more palpable and more accessible to most of us now than it has been for a while. If you have been feeling this vital energy for some time now, it likely felt "off limits" to you. Or you felt uncertain how to channel it, and it was hard to discern which aspect of your life and being was asking for that particular infusion of energy. Now that our confusion is clearing, it is an ideal time to start mindfully engaging with it.
One of the practices I have adopted in the last few weeks has been to ask (the energy, my guides,Spirit), as I wake and before I sleep; how do you want to express yourself through me right now? In which aspect of self/Self are you asking me to grow? Then I let the query flow out into the ethers releasing the need to direct it. I promise, it WILL come back to you. As gentle nudges throughout the days and weeks. It is helpful to note that this "growth" is not so much about maturation and healing, instead it is about expansion. Learning to be a more expanded version of who we already are. For example: If you have been finding and enjoying new (or rediscovering old) forms of self expression; how might you be able to move that out into the world? Think small. We all want to jump to huge, mind blowing, revolutionary action. Smile kindly at that tendency (if you have it) and gently inform it that it is not required at this time. Small actions, small engagement, small involvement can move mountains over time and with consistency. So do something small that feels expansive. If you have been drawing or painting, share your creation with someone. Make a color copy and send it as a love note to someone you think would enjoy it. If you like to write poetry, print a poem out in an attractive font and send it to someone you believe might enjoy or benefit from that particular message. If you love to cook, the next time you make something yummy, share it with someone you know likes that kind of food, or share it with someone who could use some food in their belly. If you have been walking in nature and that is really feeding you, allow yourself to do it more frequently. If it would still feed you in the same way, or maybe feed you in a new way, invite a friend or acquaintance along from time to time. Share your treasure with them. Small. Steady. Powerful.
Now, if you can tell that you are being asked for even bigger expansion, please honor that. If you are being asked to expand far beyond your usual territory and comfort zone, take a deep breath, smile, and say "okay, show me the way." If this evokes fear in you, look the fear in the face and ask it where it comes from? What are its origins? Inform it that you will hear it out, however you will not allow it to increase or take over the conversation. Listen compassionately to what it tells you. Then ask your heart to open as far as it possibly can, feel what a full open heart feels like, turn that feeling toward your fear, and discredit it. Remind the fear that you truly will not die from this kind of expansion, but you might feel more alive, and you are willing to take the risk to feel more alive.
As always, if you need help navigating these shifts and loosening fears hold on you, I am available for Skype sessions and in-person sessions in Pueblo, Fort Collins and Boulder.
Joy, love and expansion to you all!
P.S. I have recorded a meditation for you all as a New Moon Solar Eclipse and Chinese New Year offering. It is specifically designed to help you tap into, harness and utilize all of that powerful cosmic energy that is flowing through you. Enjoy!
Photo credit to my fabulous life partner!
Healing is about opening ourselves as a conduit of love and limitlessness
It's about containing fear
First we must create space, as fear is chaotic and loves clutter
2018 is our year of letting go of fear and limitations
It requires some excavating, and maybe a few tears
Eliminating some broken habits
Allowing in a courageous new practice
Of self-regard and nurturing affection
Turning away from self-dereliction
This is not about new year's resolutions
It's more in line with personal restitution
Uncovering the lost piece of art that you are
Giving back to yourself what you have taken away so far
Giving time and energy and creative innovation
Holding yourself in love, a process of reclamation
With deep love and affection,
Sending you deep blessings and yet more bliss(tering awareness) from which to
grow in the New Year! I send these wishes in love. You can choose to receive them
or return them unopened (in love), if they don't speak to you at this time.
Choice, we all have choice.
Fall has arrived...
And with it came lightening, thunder, rain, hail, flooding, and a truly Divine spectacle to behold in the beautiful and magical Chaco Canyon. Mother Earth and Father Sky helping to usher in the next step, turn on our inner lights, and open an important new door or portal. All of the stillness we have been experiencing has come to an end. We can feel the wheels turning and the subtle movement of the workings of the Universe. However, we still may not tangibly see or feel that movement in our own lives. We may still feel like we are fumbling for the light switch or stuck in the Room of Doors (Harry Potter). As we close the door we have just explored and ruled out, the room spins and we are left unable to decipher which doors we have already explored and shut for good and which we need to boldly and courageously open and step through. We feel the need to move, to act, and we still don't have the necessary information to do so. This energy requires us to be slow, observant and thoughtful. In a heartfelt sort of way. Too much reliance on mental interpretation could backfire. We need to approach every day and every situation by settling into our heart center, acknowledging and nurturing our connection to the Divine and each other, and from there listen to our soul's directive about how to proceed. We will be tempted to dive into any action just for the sake of movement. That is our old pattern. We are attempting to establish a new pattern. One based on inviting our essence to have a voice. Opening our hearts to this very important guest that we have been pushing out for years. This part of ourselves that we alienated (maybe even still marginalize) in order to better fit inside the box. The fact that we haven't ever fully fit inside the box is not the tragedy. The real tragedy is that we outlawed the truly brilliant and capable parts of ourselves in the process. We must invite that part of ourselves home. Open the door and let it enter. Let it fill us until we are bursting with the awareness of our own presence. Every moment, at every turn in the road, find your center and choose the next door based on your own personal heart wisdom.
With love, gratitude and blessings,
Tawa Ranes has a very curious mind and has always been interested in the nature of consciousness and the workings of the Universe. Since healing has been a big part of her own personal journey, much of her curiosity focuses on understanding how and why healing occurs or fails to take place.