Hello Dearest Ones,
I've been wanting to get a love note out to you for the last few days. First I needed to find my way free of one of the waves of intense energy that seem to be hitting us all in the last few weeks. I find it preferable to have a clear head and an open heart when writing love notes (or anything, for that matter).
The collective and cosmic energies are quite intense and fiery as of late. The astrologers will tell you it has a lot to do with the movements of Mars, Saturn and Mercury. I have no doubt this is true, however, what I most pick up on and tune into is the collective energies that my etheric body feels. Those of you who are sensitive to ambient energies and human emotions are likely experiencing a pretty intense case of nervous system overload, intermingled with bright burst of creativity and enthusiasm for life.
What this is likely to look and feel like for many of us is: difficulty getting to sleep and/or staying asleep (there is some anxiety mixed in here for many of you), an erratic appetite that swings from huge to absent, high and productive energy for a day or two followed by complete exhaustion and low mood for a day or two, illness and body aches, difficult communication, and lots of old or obsolete patterns, fears and conflicts surfacing.
I awoke with this thought this morning. It seems pertinent to the topic at hand: We often participate in self-indulgence and self-neglect, but rarely do we practice self-respect.
Self care is critical right now. When your body asks for rest, rest. When your body requires movement, move. Hydrate even more diligently than you usually do. It is especially helpful to eat foods that have a high water content like cucumbers, bell peppers, oranges, grapefruits, and melons. Also, grounding foods like protein and good fats are helpful.
Finding a quiet moment each day or even a couple of times a day can really make a difference. If you aren't into meditation just take the time to focus on your breath a couple of times a day. Sit on the earth or place your feet on the earth first, then try to continuously fill your lungs for 4 seconds and continuously empty them for 4 seconds. Do this for 5-10 breaths. If you can extend the breath out to 6 or 7 seconds, even better. If you like to meditate or have been thinking about starting a meditation practice, now is a great time to do so. Even 3-5 minutes of meditation can make a huge positive impact on your nervous system. If your mind refuses to get quiet just sit still with the breath and observe how busy your mind is. It's important to observe without judgment.
The biggest thing that is causing these intense waves is the resurfacing of old/ obsolete patterns, fears and conflicts. To allow these patterns to surface and gain wisdom from them requires a big dose of self-compassion. If you aren't very adept at self-compassion, it helps to look at things as if they were being experienced by someone you love. Respond to your own struggles in the way you would respond to your son, sister, or friend. Also, in healing there is a concept we talk about called spiraling. In spiraling, when we come around yet again to an old and tired theme in our lives, we tend to get frustrated and wonder why we haven't been able to move on from this particular thing. It is helpful to recognize that we are always coming around to a deeper level or layer of the issue. Progress is inherent in the process, and acknowledging the progress has an additive quality to the healing you are doing. So, recognize and acknowledge that the tenor of this particular struggle is slightly different this time around. Notice that you are able to be more objective about it. Notice that your heart doesn't shut down quite as tightly. Notice that you no longer carry a hard lump in your throat when you address whatever it is that is presenting itself to you. The discomfort we feel comes from resisting and trying to ignore what is being shown to us and asking for resolution. You don't have to do anything with it. Just see, feel or hear what is surfacing for you and take a compassionate look at it. Cry if you need to cry, scream if you need to scream, talk to someone about it if you know that would help. Acknowledge it, and then invite all of the energy you carry about it to leave you. Ask for it to be lifted off of you. God/ Goddess will happily do that for you. Repeat this process as much as necessary, until you notice that you feel lighter and like you have moved forward emotionally.
The good news is that we only have a couple more weeks of this to move through. Take advantage of what it is trying to teach you. There is great wisdom to be gained in actively participating in the process.
I love you all,
You have been on my mind and in my heart lately. I have been attempting to get a communique out to you for several weeks. To no avail. Until now. Of course, timing is always divine if we allow it to be so. Each time my efforts were foiled I simply stepped back and respected the probability that the time was not quite ripe. In the time of ripening that I have allowed, my thoughts and perceptions have shifted and evolved. Hopefully making for a clearer and more resonant message for you.
Since the end of December there have been some very dramatic shifts in energy. The most notable of which, is feeling like we have a bit more get up and go. There is ample potent and vibrant life force energy (prana) flowing around for us to tap into at this time. This is always the case, however it is simply more palpable and more accessible to most of us now than it has been for a while. If you have been feeling this vital energy for some time now, it likely felt "off limits" to you. Or you felt uncertain how to channel it, and it was hard to discern which aspect of your life and being was asking for that particular infusion of energy. Now that our confusion is clearing, it is an ideal time to start mindfully engaging with it.
One of the practices I have adopted in the last few weeks has been to ask (the energy, my guides,Spirit), as I wake and before I sleep; how do you want to express yourself through me right now? In which aspect of self/Self are you asking me to grow? Then I let the query flow out into the ethers releasing the need to direct it. I promise, it WILL come back to you. As gentle nudges throughout the days and weeks. It is helpful to note that this "growth" is not so much about maturation and healing, instead it is about expansion. Learning to be a more expanded version of who we already are. For example: If you have been finding and enjoying new (or rediscovering old) forms of self expression; how might you be able to move that out into the world? Think small. We all want to jump to huge, mind blowing, revolutionary action. Smile kindly at that tendency (if you have it) and gently inform it that it is not required at this time. Small actions, small engagement, small involvement can move mountains over time and with consistency. So do something small that feels expansive. If you have been drawing or painting, share your creation with someone. Make a color copy and send it as a love note to someone you think would enjoy it. If you like to write poetry, print a poem out in an attractive font and send it to someone you believe might enjoy or benefit from that particular message. If you love to cook, the next time you make something yummy, share it with someone you know likes that kind of food, or share it with someone who could use some food in their belly. If you have been walking in nature and that is really feeding you, allow yourself to do it more frequently. If it would still feed you in the same way, or maybe feed you in a new way, invite a friend or acquaintance along from time to time. Share your treasure with them. Small. Steady. Powerful.
Now, if you can tell that you are being asked for even bigger expansion, please honor that. If you are being asked to expand far beyond your usual territory and comfort zone, take a deep breath, smile, and say "okay, show me the way." If this evokes fear in you, look the fear in the face and ask it where it comes from? What are its origins? Inform it that you will hear it out, however you will not allow it to increase or take over the conversation. Listen compassionately to what it tells you. Then ask your heart to open as far as it possibly can, feel what a full open heart feels like, turn that feeling toward your fear, and discredit it. Remind the fear that you truly will not die from this kind of expansion, but you might feel more alive, and you are willing to take the risk to feel more alive.
As always, if you need help navigating these shifts and loosening fears hold on you, I am available for Skype sessions and in-person sessions in Pueblo, Fort Collins and Boulder.
Joy, love and expansion to you all!
P.S. I have recorded a meditation for you all as a New Moon Solar Eclipse and Chinese New Year offering. It is specifically designed to help you tap into, harness and utilize all of that powerful cosmic energy that is flowing through you. Enjoy!
Photo credit to my fabulous life partner!
Healing is about opening ourselves as a conduit of love and limitlessness
It's about containing fear
First we must create space, as fear is chaotic and loves clutter
2018 is our year of letting go of fear and limitations
It requires some excavating, and maybe a few tears
Eliminating some broken habits
Allowing in a courageous new practice
Of self-regard and nurturing affection
Turning away from self-dereliction
This is not about new year's resolutions
It's more in line with personal restitution
Uncovering the lost piece of art that you are
Giving back to yourself what you have taken away so far
Giving time and energy and creative innovation
Holding yourself in love, a process of reclamation
With deep love and affection,
Sending you deep blessings and yet more bliss(tering awareness) from which to
grow in the New Year! I send these wishes in love. You can choose to receive them
or return them unopened (in love), if they don't speak to you at this time.
Choice, we all have choice.
Fall has arrived...
And with it came lightening, thunder, rain, hail, flooding, and a truly Divine spectacle to behold in the beautiful and magical Chaco Canyon. Mother Earth and Father Sky helping to usher in the next step, turn on our inner lights, and open an important new door or portal. All of the stillness we have been experiencing has come to an end. We can feel the wheels turning and the subtle movement of the workings of the Universe. However, we still may not tangibly see or feel that movement in our own lives. We may still feel like we are fumbling for the light switch or stuck in the Room of Doors (Harry Potter). As we close the door we have just explored and ruled out, the room spins and we are left unable to decipher which doors we have already explored and shut for good and which we need to boldly and courageously open and step through. We feel the need to move, to act, and we still don't have the necessary information to do so. This energy requires us to be slow, observant and thoughtful. In a heartfelt sort of way. Too much reliance on mental interpretation could backfire. We need to approach every day and every situation by settling into our heart center, acknowledging and nurturing our connection to the Divine and each other, and from there listen to our soul's directive about how to proceed. We will be tempted to dive into any action just for the sake of movement. That is our old pattern. We are attempting to establish a new pattern. One based on inviting our essence to have a voice. Opening our hearts to this very important guest that we have been pushing out for years. This part of ourselves that we alienated (maybe even still marginalize) in order to better fit inside the box. The fact that we haven't ever fully fit inside the box is not the tragedy. The real tragedy is that we outlawed the truly brilliant and capable parts of ourselves in the process. We must invite that part of ourselves home. Open the door and let it enter. Let it fill us until we are bursting with the awareness of our own presence. Every moment, at every turn in the road, find your center and choose the next door based on your own personal heart wisdom.
With love, gratitude and blessings,
Hello Dear Ones!
You are likely still feeling a lot of emotional and psychic tension and confusion. We have moved through some very demanding astrology which has required us to dig deep into our inner beings and our hearts to better understand ourselves, our circumstances, and those around us. We will be feeling tempted to jump into action, to re-design our plan and rework our ideas about how to move forward. Most of us are not yet equipped with all of the essential tools and information to create big action. For the moment. Know that the moment of action is approaching and soothe your agitation by reminding yourself that everything turns out healthier, more refined and complete, if we allow it adequate time for gestation. It is tempting to want to force forward/ upward movement right now. Remember that what sometimes appears to be stagnation is in fact elucidation and refinement. We often have to surrender to the stillness and absence of noise and distraction before we can truly see a clear and concise path forward. Allow for regular moments of contemplation and curiosity. Resist the urge to push, force and orchestrate. And when the inevitable voice of self-recrimination surfaces, remind yourself that no true progress happens without conscientious moments (I am aware that these sometimes feel unending) of quiet reflection and a willingness to allow things to emerge and unfold in a gentler more feminine manner. The more you approve of, consent to, and embrace your awakening, the more fruitful the awareness of your deeper essence can be. The more easily you recognize and integrate who you truly are into how you participate in your personal human experience, the more you understand the true meaning of surrender. We are all making huge evolutionary strides as of late, and will be for a good while to come. Surrender to these changes is the most effective and least distressing way to move forward. Be gentle with yourself. It is very human to resist. When you meet resistance simply notice how painful it is and ask for the grace to be willing to release that resistance. Ask for the willingness to give up the struggle.
Develop a daily practice of self-love and self acceptance. Know that you truly are exactly where you are meant to be. This is always true. Even when we feel lost, off track and utterly bewildered.
Sending you all love and blessings from here through the autumnal equinox.
P.S. Notice the shadows on these shadows during the solar eclipse. We are mucking through deep and ancient layers of the self and the collective. This requires a gentle, receptive and cooperative approach. Allow the Divine Feminine to guide you now.
Hello Dear Ones!
As we step into August we just might be feeling the burn. All of the old detritus burning away. We are at the center of the fire and are certainly feeling the heat. The beauty of it is that it is a deeply cleansing and healing flame that envelops us. Think of the Phoenix that must burst into flames and become ash before returning to life in a new, brighter, wiser, and more evolved form.
Be very gentle with yourself as you navigate the powerful eclipse energy this month. Give yourself permission to slough off ALL conventions and societal norms that no longer fit (or never did fit) you. You are the only one who can know how you most beautifully show up in this human form. Give yourself permission to wear your soul on your sleeve, on your chest, in your voice or in your dancing feet. Wherever it most wants to show itself. Show us your unique ability to dance, sing, nurture, cook and garden humanity into a more loving era. However you are inspired to express your vitality, allow yourself to do it with reckless abandon and NO apologies. Be the love that we all so desperately want and need!
Much of the heaviness you are feeling is not yours. Really! You are not responsible for anyone else's experiences. We all have our individual journey and lessons. Be careful not to fall into the trap of trying to coax others into learning their lessons. You might be able to see it clearly for them, but they are the only one who can advance their evolution. Clear the energies that you are carrying that are not your own. Simply close your eyes, take a deep breath, and state that you let go of all heaviness and emotions that are not your own. Once you have done that, take another breath and offer compassion and grace to those for whom you release responsibility. In the words of Abraham Hicks, "You cannot use your strength to shore up other's weaknesses." We do other's a disservice by seeing them as incapable of caring for themselves or too weak to make the changes they need to make.
Tolerance, compassion, and a hearty dose of self-care are what is called for at the moment. Step out into the world with self love and see how profound the impact is.
With deep love and respect,
P.S. An example of throwing off societal conventions.
There is a dense martyr energy that dwells here. We are experiencing an intensifying commitment to bodhisattva. And it is true, we must choose to be a part of the collective ascension -of the collective healing. Martyrdom, however, is not required. We can find the joyful way of the light worker. We can live from a place of compassion without experiencing "compassion fatigue." We can live in perpetual compassion, and this can only happen if we include ourselves in that spotlight of compassion. If we are always shining the light on others and never turning it upon ourselves we silently and slowly burn out. But literally. Light needs light. It needs light to be coming and going, from us and into us. If it is only ever flowing away from us we aren't being fed by it. We all need to be fed. Not just our bellies, but our hearts and our souls. If you are unable to feed yourself right now, if you aren't able to shine your own light back on yourself, find another light worker who can. Allow yourself to be the recipient of a healing, a blessing, a compassionate conversation with a dear friend. Recharge your light. An incomplete circuit, one that only flows in one direction, is incapable of supplying infinite energy. A full circuit is required for continual renewal.
If you are experiencing a re-run or a recurrence of old or recently resolved issues (health, heart, soul) take heart, this is just a final run through so that you can clean up anything that still needs attention and resolutions. We cannot take those things with us where we are going. We are no longer a vibrational match for them.
With Immense Love and Compassion,
P.S. I have included a YouTube video meditation to help you complete the circuit and actively recruit your spiritual support.
Greetings from Colorado, where we had been experiencing some unseasonably warm and dry weather and now are experiencing what might be considered an excess of moisture. We are well trained in Colorado to never complain about moisture. Even if it comes in the form of floods! The weather extremes we are experiencing make me concerned for our Mother Earth, although I also acknowledge that these are our own polarizing human tendencies showing themselves in the environment. She (Gaia) and all of you beautiful humans have been on my mind and in my heart lately. The astounding racist, bigoted and misogynistic political current that is playing out in this country makes me wonder: How do we heal all of the feminine wounds of this world (and masculine wounds for that matter), so that we can move forward to a more peaceful, humane and cohesive future? I know for me it begins with healing our own personal wounds and our family wounds. If we approach our neighbors with a whole and peaceful heart instead of a wounded heart we have a much better chance of bringing love and compassion into that exchange. Sometimes, as we are witnessing with the US presidency, we have to confront and face our shadows so that we can truly heal them. We as a collective have to acknowledge that these deep seeded beliefs still exist in this country, even though we understand that it isn't that large of a current.
I share with you a POEM and a PHOTOGRAPH that both have been an important part of my healing journey. They speak to our resilience and perseverance. There is tension and anger in the words and the poem, however it is with allowing myself to feel these shadow emotions that I have been able to truly move beyond them. The shadow emotions can't just be swept under the rug. We must pick them up, take a good look to see that we truly understand their purpose in our lives, collected them all, and then diligently throw them into the trash bin. Or better yet the recycling bin! To be transmuted and brought into higher vibration by the cosmic bad asses that are in this transition with us. That are here to inform our actions and cheer us on when we are heading slightly more toward evolution and ascension, and slightly less toward devolution.
Wind, Salt and Stone
As of late I have again been thinking about the idea of flow. In my last blog I wrote about what flow looks and feels like when there is a lot of movement and momentum in life. I talked about how it feels to flow when things are FLOWING. Now I turn my curiosity to the idea of flow when what you are experiencing in your life feels more like stagnation, obstruction, or churning. How do we access FLOW and still tune into the energy of flowing with Divine presence when what we are experiencing in the material world is complete stillness? Or, possibly even more challenging for many of us; when we are facing downright obstruction, or the endless spinning and agitation of being stuck in a whirlpool. What does flow look like from the middle of the eddy pool or from the riverbank when you have just butted up against a huge boulder and you can’t find a way around it? What are your options when there is no viable way of creating productive forward movement? What do we learn in the stillness of just waiting it out until there is enough momentum for the whirlpool to spit us out, or for the water level to rise sufficiently for us to finally flow over the obstruction? How do we continue to energetically flow when we are faced with the inertia of stillness, or when confronted by agitation and non-linear movement? What does that feel like?
Understanding how to flow in stillness likely begins with acknowledging that we have a collective societal dislike of stillness. And an equal dislike of agitation. We don’t voluntarily practice stillness or agitation (movement without a direction) as much as we practice action (movement with a purpose). In fact, most of us try to avoid them all together. Both stillness and churning are interpreted as the absence of order in our lives. We experience them as an undesired lack of control. So our knee jerk reaction is to try to change the situation. We work hard to get unstuck and to get moving again. When confronted with stagnation or agitation we inevitably respond with effort; even when it feels like single handedly pushing a two ton boulder up a steep hill. We would rather work ourselves into a state of complete exhaustion than to be still, or to sit patiently in an agitated state. It is completely counter intuitive for most of us to relax and allow ourselves to simply experience the churning with the faith that eventually we will be dumped out exactly where we need to be. We haven’t yet learned to sit in stillness with the knowledge and trust that there is invisible work being done (both by us and on our behalf) that truly is moving us forward in our trajectory. Invariably we react to both stillness and churning with effort. Some sort of effort to help us gain, at the very least, the illusion of forward momentum.
Maybe that’s the whole point. When we are in a moment of stillness or in a period of being stuck in the vortex, we aren't dealing with the kind of energy that can be moved or transmuted with effort. In this instance effort just batters and bruises us as we thrash about and bump up against the obstacle. Or it exhausts us. We can swim and swim and swim without ever arriving at an end point, without ever breaking free of the whirlpool, because that end point simply doesn’t exist yet. That particular door has not yet been opened. So what would happen if we rolled over and floated on our back until we were finally, effortlessly caught up by the tide and slowly moved by it? Either way, whether we resist or peacefully submit to the experience, the timing is not ours. The timing is always Divine. We will only arrive at a destination when it is time for us to arrive at that destination. We will only discover the fork in the road when we are actually prepared to choose a direction.
That's what the experience of stillness and agitation offer, they offer a pause, a moment in space and time to prepare for what is to come. Our efforts have no effect on the length of the journey. Effort will not get you there faster. Effort only affects the condition in which you arrive at the next stage. You can arrive well rested and well-nourished (because you figured out how to flow) or you can arrive battered, bruised and exhausted (the result of resistance). What flowing in stillness calls for, what the endless churning truly calls for; is SURRENDER. They call for sitting and submitting, and serenely witnessing your life as it readies you for the next step or next series of steps that you will need to take.
I encourage you to play with the idea of surrender. Become curious about it. Surrender to the stillness. Surrender to the chaos and churning if that is what is present in your life. Avoid the temptation to try to get unstuck. Avoid all effort. Just sit and allow the Universe to move you. There is something you are trying to learn from being here, so let yourself be here. Stop trying to get there. Surrender to the here and now, look around, open your eyes and see this moment, and then ask your mind and your heart to accept that you truly are exactly where you are supposed to be. Be here now. Be with those who are in this moment with you. Release the belief that you are stuck. You ARE flowing, right here, in the stillness!
So very much love for you all,
Hello My Beautiful Friends! I greet you from Faenza, Italy!
I have been given many opportunities as of late to become intimately familiar with the idea of "going with the flow." For me, one of the hardest aspects of life is to trust enough (myself, life, the universe, the Divine), to relax and simply allow things to unfold. I have spent most of my life doing a lot of planning, goal setting, and organizing. It doesn't come naturally for me to feel at ease with the idea that all I can do is to put one foot in front of the other and be present with each moment; while life does its thing and unfolds around me. I want to actively unfold it, decide when and where it should unfold, and know well in advance what the outcome of that unfolding entails. Sound like anyone you know? Philosophically I understand that this is not how the Universe works, but my human mind really likes to have at least the illusion that I've got all the details figured out in advance.
As my travels in Europe unfold, I am quickly reminded that life is a journey: with many different twist and turns, some anticipated and others that contain the joyous element of surprise. Being the contemplative sort that I am, my recent experiences have brought my mind to rest on the often underrepresented and under-admired virtue of being able to FLOW through life. When I started this trip I had a basic framework in place; which for me was necessary. It allowed me to feel that I had a known trajectory. A stepping off point, that created a strong enough sense of security for me to brave getting on the plane that flew me over the Atlantic Ocean, to start my four and a half month sojourn into the unknown. Within the first two week of being here that framework had to be completely restructured. Between unforeseen visa issues and simply having a better sense of what I am looking for from this trip once I got here, the original framework was no longer functional. I'm still in the process of restructuring it, but this time there is a built in sense that everything I plan for today may very well have a different plan for me by tomorrow.
It doesn't surprise me that I chose to start my adventures in Europe in a small town in the Italian Alps. Mother Earth, and more specifically her majestic mountains, have always held a special place for me. It is where I can most feel the Great Mother's presence. When I am near her in this way, she takes me into her arms, tenderly sheltering me. Letting me fill myself with her warmth, and hear the beat of her heart, as she gives me the strength and courage to live as boldly as she does each day. To love as broadly and freely. She is an example to me, of cosmic proportions, of how to live unfettered, abundant and joyous. It was the prefect place in which to start my journey. I had intended to stay for three months in that heavenly nest...
Once I was safely ensconced on Italian soil, the Universe reminded me that we are co-creators. I have dreamed my dream and put my plan into action, and now it's time for me to allow the Divine to build a web of synchronicity far greater than what my human mind is able to imagine. I have let my desires be known to the Great Creator and now I must sit back, relax, and allow the Universe to work its magic. When the life pushes me in a new direction it is my responsibility to feel that push and allow it to initiate movement. So, to the best of my ability, I am relaxing into the FLOW and allowing it to guide my journey.
I am a known "resister." I often have to wear myself out swimming upstream for a time before I remember to turn on my back, point my feet down stream, and let it take me. As I learn and evolve the resistance is becoming less and less of an automatic reaction. There was no delay in my actions this time. I immediately responded to the Universe's nudges and allowed myself to be moved by them. However, I did have to do a small amount of mental unraveling to see my way clear of the doubts that wanted to invade my being when it become obvious that I was going to have to do some authentic flowing on this trip.
Blessedly, once I had rested upon the Great Mother's breast, and dipped my toes into the deep and unfamiliar waters of the Italian language and culture with her encouragement and support, I feel brave enough to move into larger populations. I know she will always be with me as I journey to yet unfamiliar places. I will feel her presence when the wind moves through my hair. I will feel her presence in the hearts of the people I encounter. And I will feel her presence as I sit in meditation, inviting her in and asking that she continue to share her wisdom with me, telling me when it is time to stay and when it is time to go.
The Great Mother reminds me of the importance and necessity of flow, of movement. She shelters me when I need shelter and she tells me when it is time to leave the nest. To lovingly release the maternal bosom, so that I might venture farther and wider in my quest. To leave the comfort of that small town nestled in a deep mountain valley, so that I might happen upon more of the fellow travelers that are on this journey with me. The kindred spirits I so long to know. She reminds me that I can stand strong and walk forward on my own two feet, and that she will always be there to guide me.
As the Universe was nudging me to soften my plans and consider a change of scenery, I came across this quote by my friend John Tzavelas. "Just because something feels like it's meant to be when it happens, that doesn't mean you're not meant to move on once maximum growth has been extracted." It was a great reminder that even when we are acting on intuition and heart guidance, life is still fluid and impermanent. So, even though my decision to go to that particular place in Italy had been right in the moment, and had effectively gotten me to Italy in the first place, it didn't mean that the decision to leave that place wasn't just as intuitive and heart driven.
So this is what it means to me right now to flow. To let the journey lift you, move you, and sometimes place you in situations and locations you never expected or planned for. May we all continue to learn to be more fluid, and to let life gently wash away some of our more rigid nature.
Tawa Ranes has a very curious nature and has always been interested in the nature of consciousness and the workings of the Universe. Since healing has been a big part of her own personal journey, much of her curiosity focuses on the understanding of how and why healing occurs or fails to take place.